A Flashback from 2005....

Trying to keep up with the consistency of posting here...Hmmmm. I wonder....never mind.

I wanted to share a written flashback to some of my thoughts when I was tempting as a legal secretary back in April of 2005. It seems as though I hit a creative slump around that time as well and I find it very encouraging to re-read over my thoughts and goals from that time, knowing what financial dyer straits I was facing back then. Seriously, I considered moving back to Chicago to live with again with my mom yet the thought of doing so terrified me. I didn't want to go back home with my tail in-between my legs with no type of success to speak of ...and yet I was forgetting the very expensive graduate level degree I spent time and money on to achieve. Never, ever over look that achievement, ya'll. So here's some of my random thoughts from five years ago... enjoy!

Monday, April 11^th, 2005

I haven’t written in a while and suddenly I stopped maintaining a diary like before. I don’t know what has come over me in the past few months, however I have become “obsessed” with paying off my debt and gaining money. It’s an obsession I hope to get over with soon and hopefully I can return to just having fun doing videos and creating projects outside of what I have done from NYU.

This week I want to return to the “old” me. The “creative” me. The selfless and giving me. Service I know for a fact that the law firm I am currently employed through my agency, Woodham & Myers (the name of the actual agency has been changed for privacy issues.) does not want to hire me and I want to have the power to choose to leave. I am committed to spending my lunch hour – (12:00 – 1:00pm) to search for other “creative” opportunities and work outside of this “9-to-5”. I have an ad thumb-tacked to my desk about voice-over work. This is something to check out. Also, if there is not fee involved, I would like to call “Global Casting Network” for actor/actress extra work. I have to get my foot in the door somewhere. And then there’s the ace in my deck; an e-mail for Henry Western, who works for a popular cable network (this has been changed as well). I think I’m going to rework my resume to reflect producing and directing jobs and use NYU as the training/schooling/job that will hopefully open some eyes to this. I have to get very, very serious about this.

What I want out of my career. What I want out of my life. These are some things to serious ponder….

April 12^th-15^th 2005

So here’s a list of things to accomplish during my lunch time:

1) Price/purchase Final Draft for the PC. The last time I checked this was in January for the 7.0 version. It is imperative to place the 3 scripts I currently have in this format (to be taken seriously as a screenwriter).

2) Re-copyright “Marissa’s Song” - Copyright paperwork is at my house.

3) Call the Dentist. Either Dr. Bullock for an appointment during my birthday weekend or another dentist here in the Brooklyn area under the Well-Care health plan I have.

4) Call the agency for creatives (Do #7 before I do this.) Set-up an appointment with an placement specialist. Also, update and correct resume with Hope experience on resume.

5) Contact 2 other employment agencies for full-time employment. – No more legal secretarial work. Focus on Media planner work, public relations or some type of media assistant/specialist work.

6) Create a countdown in 3D (using Maya) – To get the creative juices flowing again, use Maya and create some 3D objects/type letters for title sequences.

7) Re-do the Demo reel. – Update demo reel with Hope Worldwide material and weddings stuff for CG.

So, this is where my head was at back in '05. Ironically, many of the items mentioned on this list was accomplished. If nothing else people, please know and learn that writing down your goals with a full commitment to them always is assured for the follow-through.

See ya'll a little bit later....